The real, untold, and unvarnished story of life inside the Playboy Mansion--and the man who holds the key--from the woman who was Heff's number one girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door"I'm well aware of the public perception of Hugh Hefner and his harem of blondes. I may have been reduced to becoming a trophy girlfriend, but despite the popular opinion of Playboy bunnies, I wasn't a fool. I knew how most people felt about us, but that wasn't nearly as important as how I felt about myself. In my heart I knew that I had sold a bit of my soul for the chance at fame."--Holly Madison For Holly Sue Cullen, falling into the Playboy Empire was as strange, wonderful, and fraught with peril as Alice's slip into Wonderland. A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed the small-town Oregon girl into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner's number one girlfriend. Her years inside the Mansion went from a fairy-tale of A-list celebrity parties and events (as well as her own #1-rated TV show) to an oppressive regime of strict rules, scheduled sex with the boss, backstabbing newcomers, and a total loss of identity. Nearly swallowed whole and figuring the damage to her life was irrevocable, it is no wonder Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub one night contemplating her own end. Holly's tale is a cautionary one--but also one of personal empowerment. There was no hero to save her. Initially, magician Criss Angel gave her the courage to leave Hugh Hefner's kingdom, but as Holly found out, jumping from a terrible relationship to an abusive relationship wasn't a way to reclaim her identity. In Down the Rabbit Hole, Holly opens up fully for the first time about life inside the Mansion, her near marriage to Hugh Hefner, and her disastrous relationship with Criss Angel, and takes readers behind the scenes of her successful series. Holly's is the story of a woman finally deciding to live on and by her own terms. It's the story of her finding her footing again, not just with her turn on Dancing with the Stars, or her successful follow up shows, but by reclaiming a life that she knew she deserved.